No longer amphibeous.

As much as I would like to think it. I am not a swimmer anymore. I cannot boast of Olympic Trials because I never went. People always ask me why I didn't stick with it. I never liked swimming. Never. The diarrhea feeling before each race was not as much fun as it sounds. It was the team. The coaches and the swimmers. I feel terrible about not being in contact with any of them. They were there for me the whole way. The coaches even taught me how to pick up girls (thanks dad...). They were the whole reason I did it. I never cared about the race - I just didn't want to let the team down. When it was time for me to swim for UCSB, I quit before it even started. My old team had more than just swimming, we were fucking dynamic. College athletics has one purpose: win at all costs. My new coach told me that the life of a college swimmer was tough. There were 3 aspects of a college athlete's life - academia, social life, and sports - and I would have to drop one. I dropped sports. College is about learning and meeting people. I want to be a regular kid. I want to have fun. I WANT TO SLEEP IN. I miss my cubs, but I cannot let swimming define me. When one door closes, another opens, right? Fuck yeah. Now I can get a job. Now I can have a relationship that isn't over text. Now I can risk my body without feeling guilty about my next race. Now I can start a blog.